I have this sick feeling in my stomach every time that people ask me about my future.

The truth is I really have no idea what I'm going to do with my life. Yeah, art.

Obvious answer.

I suppose that I could get a job as some sort of lab tech maybe. But I don't know.

I'm really not that good at art.

I mean people always look at my art and say something about their little sister being really good, or their boyfriend being absolutely fricken' amazing.

But I'm just average really.

Sure...I should just keep working at it and I'll get better.

However I hate feeling like I'm second rate. I have this friend. She draws but just on the side. She's still better than I am.

How does that make me feel?

It makes me feel stupid...

I have no idea what to do with my life. I know God has a plan, but sometimes I wish he would just let me in on it. Seriously

I suck at pretty much everything

well not suck

I'm ok at everything

but not awesome

not talent

just ok

What does that mean for me then?

What does an ok person do?

Do they teach some subject in high school?

Do they just get married and become a stay at home mom?

I've been starting to look at colleges and stuff

It scares the crap out of me.

I wish I could go to never land with peter pan sometimes

sometimes I just wish things could stay forever in summer, no school with everyone happy to be together

But variety is the spice of life so yeah

I know I'm probably just being emo